Heartbreaks, Its going pretty hard for me, im pretty shure im not the only one.
Heartaches are the worse, they really are. I cant take the thought of what i’m going through, i dont think i’d wish the way i’m feeling to my worst enemy. I hate everybody judging the fact i go back to him alot,i dont mean for it to happen.I love this guy alot, i really do. But, sometimes i ask myself, ” how far will this go?” . Sometimes i think its me, that its not even him. We’ve had some horrible arguements , and then after a few days one of us just has to come back. This time that we broke up this week i thought it was over for good… i really did. i cried everynight .. ..just thinking of him and our memmories.its so sad to look back at myself and see myself how i cried for every little thought, it was so miserable. I thought that i could make it, but i cant. .its hard. I would remember all the stuff ive said to him & always wondered if he would remember, or if he though of me like i did or was he texting all these girls & moving on? i hate how bad it looks if i do the same & if he does, its tottaly fine. When he use to tell me not to talk to guys, i wouldnt do it. . but i always wondered if he thought the same, if it was worth it to do? i dont want him to think that he needs to have his own space & that im not allowing that, because he does, & i dont want him to get tired of me , so. I always try to be okay with everything , but sometimes he needs to understand that i just want to be the only one … .its so diffucult everyday living with a heartache, its like everything reminds you of him & destiny fights along to put everything that reminds you of him in your life……i remember that like 3 days ago, everything reminded me of him.Like for example, he loves cars, and in French class the next day the teacher decides to make us do projects on cars, and alot of them looked like racing cars. I remember that morning aswell, i found a valentines day card that he had gave me……. & thats when i shed a few tears in school. I don’t blame him for breaking my heart, we both failed at everything, but i wonder if with a broken heart you try & put the pieces back together, does it really hurt ? like the quote” Fixing a broken heart is like a broken mirror, its better to leave the broken pieces instead of getting hurt” .I DONT believe in it,because why would you want to have the broken pieces in the first place… i wonder so many things, thats exactly what im doing right now……….i cant stop thinking about everything…
If you’re able to let me go, walk away without a fight. Obviously I’m not that important & I’m way better off without you.
I know you in real life and I feel like I know you so much better because of your tumblr.. to me your were one of my best friends when we were little and then we didnt talk for a while bc we never saw eachother and when I see you know which is rare, you are always smiling and having a good time. But on tumlbr i feel like I know you so much better because I know you for who you truely are and you are an amzing person:)
AnonymousIm glad, i really im glad that you think im an amazing person for who i truelly im, it really means alot. I would love to know your name next time childhood bestfriend:] !
